Kali cried “I wish I could speak to my Dad again, I know I can’t, but I wish I could …”
I Wish. 
In polite conversation the listener might move the speaker along. Trying to appease, or comfort both parties rather than dwell on what’s not possible or feasible. The wish lament holds an intolerable energy of regret, nostalgia, & loss.
Yet with courage wishes can tell us who we are. Kali grieves her deceased Father, who she was close to.
She continued ..” It’s so pointless having these feelings – what are they for?” As a reminder that loss is painful: and that we are all conditioned to avoid pain.
To reframe: we all have our parents inside us. They are our creators. They stumble, they fall, they disappoint us – yet without them we are not. So we have two choices: suppress avoid for the energy to leak into other spaces. Or learn to face & integrate the loss within us as a friendly wound. For Kali her Father was a wonderful man: complicated by her inadequate spiteful mother. She holds him like a warm fire in the cold world of her childhood.
And why not. We get through reality, by imagining the best version of ourselves who everyone loves & admires. Reality is rough & tough with only our flawed selves to navigate it. Our wishes help us to imagine what reality might be, rather than what it is. That energy can create ideas, ambition, creativity good and bad.
Capitalism is fuelled by unresolved loss. That energy is mitigated by shopping, what we stick in our mouths & bodies. How we act out our fear of death by accumulating wealth/life insurance/stocks & shares we will never need. We create groups of avoidance in sport, religion, & complaint. With our avoidance of the pain of loss we are open to manipulation of rescue, being led by despots promising a bright future past.
To attempt to come to terms with our loss is a radical act: a rebellion, a protest.
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